||[May. 8th, 2007|04:37 am]
alright its 4 something AM and i can't sleep|
i've been thinking about secrets, lately
more since lo's show
and the spill of real actors/peoples secrets at the end. the ones that change each night
whether funny or serious, meaningless or life shattering
what three secrets i would have told on those three nights
and by secrets
i mean stories. or things. no one else has every heard. not even my closest of friends
i have one. i always have one. that i know i've never told. i'd say on the scale closer to life shattering but not quite
the other two are so up in the air.
i have embarassing stories that people know. tidbits of my life that not many people know. but no major secrets.
i wish i remembered more. just in general. if i could remember every single day moment to moment and how things change, i'm sure i'd have more secrets to spill.
i mean, there are secrets, but steph knows most of them. or some others. or variations of it. so they're not complete secrets.
i only have one secret. and i don't know why that's bothering me right now
anyway. it's my last day in seattle....well, once the sun comes up. which i'll be up for for the first time all year. never had to pull an all nighter for work. just staying up all night for no reason right now. maybe i'll go on the roof
i spend every night on the roof anyway
maybe i'll just wait for the sun tonight
honestly. my nights on the roof with my laptop, journal, and everything else. make me seem so dramatic and emo it's ridiculous
and it's no surprise to anyone that i love rooftops, now is it?
but one more day in seattle. then chicago. and montreal. and new york. and israel
it's all changing, isn't it?
hmmm 5:48 the sun rises. it's only 4:45. maybe i'll write. i have another play stirring in my mind. i finally got my teenage angst out of me with "just be" and "live the dash"
so no more
i don't think i'll be done writing until i write my definitive piece, the one that changes the american theatre, or maybe america. hopefully. but every play i write i get closer.
i'm out. leave me cute messages or something
as i won't write in here until i'm back from israel